DONE SCHOOL

12:08 A.M.

That post was 6 months late, my b.

So anyways. Freshman year is over. Thank gosh.

I dealt with a lot of jokes, pushing, embarrassment, yada yada yada.

I am sorry I've been inactive a lot. I lost all of my friends except Rose and Jen (not their real names btw).

I also made a new friend, Jaden. He's dating Jen.

Rose, Jaden, and I are in band together.

I'm getting really serious about flute lately. Auditioning for allstate in November. 4 months to go!

I'm Not Dead!

Heyo guys. I am not dead.

I am just very unmotivated.

Anyways I am half way through highschool already... yep sorry I forgot to mention.

If you want a recap of how my first day went I'll do it now.

THE WORLDS BIGGEST TRAGEDY

nope just kidding

Kayla's First Day of High School
I had no desire of getting up. I was at my Dad's so I was on my own with my hair and makeup etc. I honestly didn't put any effort into my outfit. It was black leggings, black converse, striped shirt with a blue sweatshirt. I french braided my hair and did mascara. Once I arrived, I was swarmed with kids. So many piled into two small doors, and I was pushed and squeezed and it was very uncomfortable. I knew my schedule already, thanks to pyl and orientation the day prior. I went through my schedule:

Spanish 1
Transition Lab
Honors Gateway English
Algebra 1
Honors Energy
Band
Global Studies
Academic Lab

Overall, I dealt with a lot of freshmen jokes, as I expected.

Hello

8:29 PM
on the couch

Hio everybody. I am back. So, where have I been since April you ask? Doing absolutely nothing. Well, I've been doing my summer reading if that counts. Actually, not summer reading just, ugh. Anywaysssss I have to read a book for each honors class I chose, so 4 books total. High school is going to be difficult. Anywho on Monday I am starting my 2-week preparation program at my high school, so that'll be fun. So, I don't really have much to write about in the summer.  Oh yeah, I decided not to continue Breakthrough. I want to enjoy my summer, ya know? Plus I'd be missing 2 weeks for PYL(Pushing Your Limits). So yeah, see you next post.

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High School (dun dun dun)

5:03

So. I just submitted my high school course registration form. For classes, I chose: Honors Gateway English, Honors Biology, Algebra 1, and Global Studies. You see, freshman are only allowed to take 2 honors classes, if we were allowed to take more than one honors course I'd be in Honors Algebra 1, but since we can only have 2 honors courses I chose Gateway English and Biology.

For electives, I chose: Band(full year), Robotics, Spanish 1, and Fitness Fundamentals.

I honestly feel like I am going to fail my first year of high school. You see, my teachers are amazing, they really explain things so I understand, but they don't give us any homework-at all. In high school, we have to expect 2-4 hours of homework per night. That's going to be a really big adjustment for me, going from 0 hours to 2-4 hours of homework per day?

I haven't told you guys this but I joined the softball team. I got jersey #1, like I always do. It's my lucky number for some reason. But I have never played softball before so it's kind of difficult for me to play with the other girls who are all very talented at softball and have experience. I also feel really embarrassed when I don't catch the ball or when I'm running. I feel like people stare at me when I run, that's just a paranoia I have-but it's usually never the case.

So, in addition to Breakthrough, I am going to a 2-week summer program called Pushing Your Limits(PYL) which is for upcoming freshman to learn where everything is in high school, get a head start, do your summer reading, and meet other upcoming freshman.

I really hope I can make new friends there, because I am so terrible with meeting new people. It's usually if I am partnered up with someone in class when I talk to someone.

I'm not worried at all about how many people are going to be at my high school, since it's only going to be about 800 students. My old middle school was about 1,040 kids, so it won't be anything I'm not used to.

Well, today was Jordan's birthday. I gave him a stuffed cat.

I don't really know what else to say.

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I'm Not Positive

4:01 PM Eastern Time Zone~Computer desk

OK. I sound positive in my posts, right? Well, I can't pretend anymore. I am not a positive, happy person. I'm not depressed or anything, just not as positive as I make off to be in my posts. I usually add positivity into my posts nonchalantly, but now I will start paying more attention in my posts. Usually, I'd insert a smiley face here, but not anymore.

OK, rough note to start this post off on.

Lately, a wave of angst has been holding me down. I can't explain what it is, but I just feel it all the time. I keep getting nervous at simple things-like raising my hand in class. But it even affects my trust issues. Usually,I have a great sense of camaraderie when it comes to friends, but lately I keep replaying their words and keep thinking that there is some elaborate scheme their plotting against me. I love all three of them to death, but this wave of angst is killing me. I usually make small, esoteric puns or jokes with my group, mainly about my infinitesimal friend (aka Jen)  but lately I can barely mutter "hello" in the morning. I hate anxiety!

So yeah the equanimity of my mind lately has been extremely high lately. I hate to give a presentation in front of my whole class today, preparing for that was ludicrous. Not only is my teacher extremely 
fastidious, which is a good thing, usually, but my groupmate and I forgot lots of details. I bet you can imagine how that turned out.

Angst, malaise, oblivion, peevish,and maudlin have taken over my entire system. Oh yeah don't forget about anxiety.


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Edit: Sorry for my vocabulary words. When I get stressed I tend to use intellectual-sounding words. 

New Friends :)

6:14 PM~on the floor

Things have been getting better for me. A lot.

Amy, Jen, and Jordan have been very nice to me. I sit with them in every class now and in lunch. I really appreciate them. I am not particularly good at making new friends after coming to a new school, but this time is different. I'm so thankful for them :)


Anyways, I hope you all are having a great day :)


Merry Christmas :)

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I'M BACK!!

8:34 PM Eastern Time Zone~At the table

Hello to the seven people that read.

How's your day going? Mine's going OK.

I did say I would start updating after school started, didn't I?

(I'm a slacker no need to tell me)

Oops..?

Well anyways I should tell you about my new school!!! Just like at my old one I will not be using my friend's real names because I want to respect their privacy.



Kayla's First Day of the Last Year of Middle School
So it started out like everyone's first day. Pretty clothes, styled hair, etc. At least, that's how MY families first days are. I (thankfully) already knew three people. My brother, my friend Rose, and my cousin. Rose had on skinny jeans and a football sweatshirt. The definition of stylish and comfy. Meanwhile, I had on a frilly flowered dress with a blue cardigan, black flats, a pink flower in my hair, and my hair expanded with hairspray and mousse. I was not comfy. Anyways, just for good luck, I had my rainbow spikes bracelet on. All the seventh and eighth graders were in the gym, each student being assigned to a teacher. Thankfully, Rose and I were placed in the same homeroom. We had our classes, got to know what the school was like, and then it was time-for LUNCH!!! I'm just kidding it wasn't that bad. We walked into the small cafeteria, which was slightly filled with two grade.

Let me remind you of my old school for a minute, alright? You might be thinking, "you're overreacting there's no way your school is as small as you make it seem" and I guess you're right. But, my old school, with Ave, and Mic, and Liz, was a really big school. I'm not just talking maybe 100 kids per grade, I'm talking 1,200 students. Do you see where I'm coming from?

Anyways during lunch Rose and I basically just found a slightly empty table and sat in it. We were basically outsiders at that point, new people(I heard) rarely came to that school so we didn't know anyone. I mean, a couple people started small talk...

But that's really it.

I 'm in the mural and yearbook clubs... With Rose and Jen in mural and just Jen in yearbook.

So let me tell you about my friends. Overall, I have (I have so little that I can count on my fingers XD) a whopping total of...


6.


Yeah, a real big number huh? My closest friend is probably Jen, or Rose, I can't decide since they are both really great people.

Here, I'll give you a tidbit about each person...

Jen~She has a really cute dog whom I take my dog for walks with
Amy~She is a bit older then me but has a really good fashion sense
Rose~She is quieter than me(and that says a lot)
Leigh~She is really tall
Rayna~She likes horses, and she was the first person to talk to Rose and I on the first day
Jordan~ I guess I could call him my friend but he's pretty annoying tbh


Yeah. I'm Miss Popular, huh?

Well anyways... its 9 now.

I like writing, what can I say?


To those reading, thank you. It really makes my day when I see people reading my blogs, I mainly post things to stop others from making the same mistakes as I do. (trust me, I make a lot)



But I should really thank you. I am alive and breathing, and that's all that matters...


right?


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9:07 pm